6/08/2009

Lavender

I spent this morning harvesting the lavender in my backyard garden....in theory, it is supposed to bloom in late June, (there is a Lavender Festival coming up in Blanco, near Austin, next weekend, and there was one in Gainesville, 2 weeks ago) but you never know when all the buds will "pop" (depends on the weather for weeks surrounding this event) and you've got to be ready to cut them at their peak of blooming. They smell so wonderful; fresh yet not too sweet. I love to just make simple bouquets and hang them in the linen closet. Lavender seems to be one of the few things I can grow well - I am not a great gardener by any means - and it seems to do well in the climate of Texas, which is hot and dry. I started out with six little plants in 2006, each one in a 4" pot, and now they are great big bushes, 3 feet tall and have completely filled a 10 ft wide flower bed. I love it so much, and feel successful at it, so I think I will expand to another spot in the yard and grow more. Just need to find a sunny well drained spot. (FYI: I planted French lavender, which seems particularly suited to the climate here.)
Some people say all the bees have left north Texas and many other spots; folk are worried about the hive blight going around. My younger son plays violin, and we get his instrument serviced at a mom and pop string maker, called the Luthier Shop in Crossroads, Tx, and these guys also raise their own bees (for the beeswax, a crucial ingredient to string players.) They speak frequently about the dearth of bees lately. All I know is, plenty of bees were feeding in my lavender this morning. Perhaps the secret is to provide them with something they enjoy, and the ones that are left will come to you.

I first became a devotee of lavender when I went to Provence in 2006, and got to experience the blooming season there at the famous monastery of Senanque. A photo doesn't really capture how fabulous it is to experience that much lavender blooming.....walking out into the lavender rows, not only does it smell divine, but the plants seem to have an electromagnetic current running through them, you can feel the faint humming vibration of it all around you, within you. Turns out to be caused by millions of pairs of bees' wings, beating together, for the lavender is filled with bees everywhere, buzzing here and there, gathering nectar. They leave you alone; I have never been stung, as long as you respect them and let them do their job. It is truly something that has to be seen and experienced.
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In France, they make all kinds of products out of lavender : soap, candles, sachets, perfume, honey, liquor, food. I have eaten vanilla ice cream drizzled with lavender liquor and it was divine. Perhaps that will be my next project.






Huswifery, or How I Spend my Summer Vacation


There is a famous poem, from the earliest years of American literature, by the Puritan poet Edward Taylor that goes something like this :



Huswifery
Make me, O Lord, thy Spinning Wheele compleat;
Thy Holy Worde my Distaff make for mee.
Make mine Affections thy Swift Flyers neate,
And make my Soule thy holy Spoole to bee.
My Conversation make to be thy Reele,
And reele the yarn thereon spun of thy Wheele.
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Make me thy Loome then, knit therein this Twine:
And make thy Holy Spirit, Lord, winde quills:
Then weave the Web thyselfe. The yarn is fine.
Thine Ordinances make my Fulling Mills.
Then dy the same in Heavenly Colours Choice,
All pinkt with Varnish't Flowers of Paradise.
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Then cloath therewith mine Understanding, Will,
Affections, Judgment, Conscience, Memory;
My Words and Actions, that their shine may fill
My wayes with glory and thee glorify.
Then mine apparell shall display before yee
That I am Cloathd in Holy robes for glory.

While I don't necessarily share the religious sentiments of this poem, I do appreciate the notion that simple tasks of a domestic nature can provide one with a meditation on more divine things. I also know that my life runs more smoothly when my home is in order. During the school year, things are too chaotic - always dashing here and there, with nary a moment to think - and my house reflects it : piles of clothing (clean and dirty), shoes, umbrellas, backpacks, books, papers, everywhere. It is hideous, and not tranquil at all. We reached a new personal low on Saturday night, when some friends wanted to pop in unexpectedly to see us, and son #1 was packing to go away for 3 weeks, his stuff all over the den; and neither hubster nor I had been home all day - son #2 had been roving with gangs of 13 year olds, eating junk food and leaving wrappers everywhere. I think our domestic scene frightened our visitors, a young couple about to be married, into never, ever having children at all. I hope they didn't call off the wedding....it scared even me.
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Sure, I have Ina, who comes on Wednesdays and scrubs the kitchen and bathrooms, vacuums, makes beds, straightens the everlasting pile of crap on the den coffee table ( where to put it, really ? all that stuff is important: permission slips for kid events, bills to be paid, receipts, rubber bands, coupons, a few of hubster's important work papers, a calculator, some pens, the phone, the phone book, all swirled around together- all the "junk"drawers are too full!). Bless her, Ina even dusts the book cases ( in every room ) in rotation. But for a really deep cleaning, what some call a "spring" cleaning, I rely on summer vacation. It is traditionally the first activity I do as summer begins.
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I generally, start off, a room (or closet) at a time, sorting and culling ( collecting trash bags of stuff for Good Will, the trash, garage sales, etc), washing, cleaning, folding, organizing. I don't really enjoy this, but I enjoy the end result. Tell myself, one room a day.....and in a month, I'll be done (16 rooms plus 8 walk in closets and a pantry) .I drag a tool kit with me, and repair things as I find them.... and I keep a pad and pencil with me as I go, making lists of stuff to buy (giant storage bins ! new ironing board cover, large zip bags, shelf paper, more pillow cases, cleaning supplies, new photo frames for den) or do ( replace blinds in kitchen, paint master bathroom, replace throw rug in hallway, etc).
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Once started, I am good to go...and often work all night long. It is difficult for me to get started, however.....this morning I putzed around in my garden for awhile. Now I am taking a break to write this......gotta .....get back......to work.......

6/05/2009

Random Facebook Quiz


This quiz from Facebook was called "First Share"

1. Who was your FIRST prom date?
Went to 2 proms at once, on the same night ! Both Richardson HS annd JJ Pearce HS ( rival schools, both proms held on the same night, on different floors of the same hotel) with my Jr High bf Bill (I went to RHS, he went to PHS) and my best gf Judy and his best guy friend Kevin

2. Do you still talk to your FIRST love?
Yes, Bill, most days

3. What was your 1st alcoholic drink?
A margarita from Chili's. I think I was 15. (Sh! Don't tell my kids!)

4. What was your FIRST job?
Worked the cash register at Jack-In-the-Box on Preston at Valley View mall - followed closely by sales clerk at Sears and Sanger-Harris , both at VV mall in Dallas

5. What was your FIRST car?
1974 Duster, blue (No, I was not Daisy Duke ! )

6. Who was the FIRST person to text you today?
My son, Tommy

7. Who is the FIRST person you thought of this morning?
My son, Will ( he is away at science camp for 3 weeks and I miss him !)

8. Who was your FIRST grade teacher?
Mrs Green. She was ancient but kindly. I still remember some little boy named Jonathan who sat near me and pooped in his pants every day.

9. Where did you go on your FIRST ride on an airplane?
Houston, to visit Mark at Rice and to party !

10. Who was your FIRST best friend & do you still talk?
Monica, and I am so happy to have finally found her on facebook

11. Where was your FIRST sleep over?
can't remember - does my grandmother's house count ?

12. Who was the FIRST person you talked to today?
My dogs !

13. Whose wedding were you in the FIRST time?
My cousin, Barbara's.

14. What was the FIRST thing you did this morning?
Flipped on the coffee machine

15. What was the FIRST concert you ever went to?
Tex Jam at the Cotton Bowl

16. FIRST tattoo?
None yet, but came very close to getting the evil eye ( also known as a wadjet or oudja eye) tattoed onto my arm in the backroom of a bar named Waddi Razzuk's in the old quarter, Jerusalem, late one night in July 1981

17. First piercing?
Ears

18. First foreign country you've been to?
Does Mexico count ? After that, then England.

19. FIRST movie you remember seeing?
"If It's Tuesday, It Must Be Belgium" ( oddly prophetic)

20. When was your FIRST detention?
7th grade, the art teacher gave me one for glue on the desk - and it wasn't my desk, or my glue! Only one I ever was given.

21. What was the first state you lived in?
Texas

22. Who was your FIRST roommate?
Alice Mao

23. If you had one wish. What would it be?
To wish for more wishes !

24. What is something you would learn if you had the chance?
Well, my therapist says I need to let go and realize I can't do it all, control it all, fix it all. I need to be more zen.

25. Who do you think will be the next person to post this?
Who cares? If I am more zen, I'll just let it be, see what happens, where it takes me.....

5/31/2009

I Was Called to the Principal's Office #1



It is no secret that I am a teacher…..I have kept my mouth closed all these years about what really goes on in your child’s school. But enough is enough.

After an increasingly heated email exchange with a co-worker, (not a supervisor, a file collector) who repeatedly kept asking me for “x” report ( for a subject/class I did not teach), and I politely but firmly reminded her that I was , in fact , teaching “y”, had always taught “y”, that someone else taught “x”…..the door to my classroom was kicked open with a loud bang!, and the principal’s “goon” (an xtra large jr principal, formerly a coach, used as “the enforcer”) stomped in to my classroom and said to me, ”Upstairs in the principal’s office. NOW!”  (What about the students, you ask? Well, they were just left to sit there, unsupervised.)

So together we walked down the halls and up the stairs and down some more halls, and into the principal’s office. We walked together, not speaking. I stood in the doorway to the principal’s office. The principal was sitting behind her desk; she glared at me, and motioned for me to come in. I stepped in, as did the goon, and stood in front of her desk. Like the naughty little child that I was not. (It goes without saying that I am not a rule breaker sort of employee: I follow all the rules, do all my paperwork, turn everything in on time, and am unfailingly polite, regardless of how I feel. That's just how my momma raised me.) I wasn't entirely sure what this was all about, bc the previous email interchange with the coworker, during which I had been unceasingly polite, was now only a distant memory, along with everyone else I had spoken to via email that day, about various reports and tasks, and was but a small blip on my mental radar screen. 

“Why are you refusing to give Ms.C the “x” report?” the principal asked me.

I shifted my weight from one foot to the other. ”Yes, I know, she seems very upset, but I have been trying to explain to her that---“

The principal shook her head dismissively, willing me to speak faster. She was impatient for this “problem” to be resolved or at least, go away.

At this point I was babbling nervously. “….when she asked me for the “z” report last week, I gave it to her, but today she asked me for the “x” report, and I don’t teach “x”, and I have told her this, and I am just not sure what to do, I did turn my own report in on time, she doesn't seem to get that what she is asking for is something that someone else has, I have tried explaining this to her, but I just don’t know what to do, she doesn't seem to be listening, I’m here to help but……blah,blah,blah…..”

“THAT IS F-NG BULLSHIT!” the principal screamed at me, and stood up, looming over me as she yelled it, and slammed her fist down on her desk, all at the same time.

This got everyone’s attention; even the goon, who had appeared to be dozing while standing next to the principal’s desk, for even he startled, opened his eyes, and blinked.

I started backing slowly out of the office, all the while making what I refer to as my “calming face” (eyes wide open, fake calm half-smile, pitching my voice higher and smoother- I used this manner when speaking to rabid dogs, crazy people, unhinged criminals,  and distressed children), and continuing to babble, ”Hmmm, well, I’ll do my best, gotta go now, this is all just a big mistake I think, I’ll talk to Ms C again and see what we can do….blah, blah, blah….” And left. I still wasn't sure if: a)the principal knew what I was, in fact, teaching, b)if the principal knew whether I had, in fact, turned in my “z” report the few days prior, or, c)that Ms. C was mistaken, whatever she was claiming. It was clear to me that no one was interested in getting to the facts, problem-solving, or even listening to what I had to say."And don't talking to your teacher friends about this!" the principal hollered at me as I took off down the hall, speed-walking back to my class.

A few days after that incident, spurred by I-don’t-know-what other “problems” caused by various members of my work team, the principal called a meeting of our entire department, again in her office, this time after school. Once again, she sent the goon to round us up. (Bc, you know, its not like we are professional employees or anything, and would attend a meeting simply by being asked.) We stood, lined up in  a low row around the interior of her office, each of us looking at the other, trying to figure out what was going on. No one knew. The principal started in on a long, rambling speech about “cooperation” and after a few minutes, during which people started to wonder what this had to do with anything, the principal concluded with a rousing,” I mean, come on…..department S!” After this, we all filed out. Several people muttered, “now what was that all about?” No one ever found out.


Three months later, every single member of our department left. Took jobs at other schools. Word had gotten around about how I’d been screamed at and physically threatened – for nothing. 

5/25/2009

Rituals of Summer


I just finished teaching Ray Bradbury's novel Dandelion Wine to my sophomore English II students. The story of a 12 year old boy experiencing a quintessentially ideal summer in 1928, DL is a charming book, full of memorable characters and incidents. This was the first time I had re-read it since my initial perusal, when I was around 13 or 14 years old myself. The novel wears well upon a second reading; it is beautifully written, full of joyous passages and rich symbolism, yet remains an extremely accessible book for both adults and teens. I was surprised how many passages from the story I remembered from that first experience of it, 30+ years ago. The magical opening sequence, the Time Machine, the Happiness Machine, the inexplicable horror of the Ravine, the simple joy of exploring one's world - all are recalled here. I think I have been forever shaped by the way the main character, Douglass, keeps a journal of all the new experiences he notices for the first time, savoring his yellow wooden Ticonderoga pencil as he writes. It was a fun book to explore with my students, and I enjoyed sharing their reactions to the pure simple joyfulness of Douglass' childhood and summer experiences.
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In this novel, the main characters celebrate summer in several deliberate ways : the father and his sons go into the forest and pick berries, the boy saves up and buys himself a new pair of sneakers, the grandparents make dandelion wine, or as they refer to it, "summer distilled". All of which got me to thinking, what are the memories I treasure of summers past? What are the ways that I celebrate summer?
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As a child growing up in the late 60's and early 70's, summers often began for me with Girl Scout day camp, which ran through the month of June. Growing up in suburbia on the very edge of rolling pastureland dotted with trees and creeks, there was always some farm not too far away where the local scout council would lease a meadow to build campfires, where we would gather 'round and sing songs, practice crafts, cooking, knot-making, and other important skills. This little camp ended when the really hot weather came, which was and still is always around the beginning of July. My family was fortunate enough to be able to afford a several weeks-long annual trip to the Rockies, where we camped and hiked and tried not to think about the sweltering heat that builds up each year in Texas during August and September.
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As a young child, my mother wasn't a big one for taking us swimming or for encouraging any sports - hey, this was the 1960's ! the whole youth soccer movement for boys and girls was still 20 years into the future - and I was perennially embarrassed by my lack of swimming skills. I often attended a summer sleep-over camp located in the piney woods of east Texas, which was a fun time of canoeing, archery, and horse-back riding. Swimming lessons were also de rigour, but I dreaded them as I was invariably the oldest student in the beginner level class. Each year I took the class and then promptly forgot what I had learned. As I grew older, several girlfriends and I began walking to a nearby pool at a local park on a near daily basis. We didn't really exercise at this pool or develop our swimming skills; instead, we checked out cute boys and slathered ourselves with Coppertone and slow-cooked ourselves on the cement as we lay for 30 minutes on one side, then turned and baked for another 30 minutes on the other side, before repeating the whole process. I was also blessed with a good childhood friend whose parents owned a lake house, and I often spent weekends and holidays with her family, water-skiing in endless loops around that lake. By this point my swimming skills had progressed to the point that I could at least dog-paddle out to the skis at the end of the ski rope, and tread water long enough for the boat to swing by and pick me up, if I wiped out while crossing the wake. I especially remember skiing in the late summer evenings, for as the sun went down the water grew smoother, almost like glass, and slicing through it on a pair of skis was the closest experience I ever came to flying. It was magical.
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By far the most indelible summer memories for me involved the ritual of daily bike riding, often for miles, far out in to the countryside. My best friend Monica would show up most days around 8 am,while it was still fairly cool outside - I always knew when she arrived in the driveway back of the house, waiting for me on her bike, because my dogs would start barking hysterically at her presence. She never knocked on the door or came into the house. Once the dogs started barking, out I would skip to join her on our daily rides that took us, soaring on our bicycles, wind in our ears, past the concrete streets and wide lawns of suburbia, crossing a few major roads as went, into the farmlands and fields beyond. As summer progressed, we rode a little further each day, finding and "adopting" a stable where we fed apples to the horses, or a deep shady creek bed that had a rope swing fixed over it and which tempted us off our bikes for a bit. We often ended each ride, once the sun was high in the sky, at a local Dairy Queen, where our scrounged quarters bought us enough food to fuel all that exercise. Afternoons were spent reading comic books at the local 7-11. My legs grew strong and well defined, thanks to the Dr Scholls exercise shoes that we wore everywhere, even while riding our bikes. I remember that we loved our bikes so much that we gave them names : mine was called Laticlavious Excalibur Land Rover II. It was supposed to suggest a fine stallion, from days of the middle ages, and I was therefore the knight who rode out into the world on just such a steed. (Interesting to note: in another book I taught earlier this spring, Beryl Markham's West With the Night, she names her first horse Pegasus, and I know just how she felt. My bicycle was my winged mythical beast, transporting me to worlds imaginary and real. On it I felt powerful, magical, resplendent.)
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My young adult life was filled with travel and work, and I often thought of those simple childhood pleasures with nostalgia and longing. It wasn't until I had children of my own that I began to intentionally re-create as many of them as I could, for my own children.
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Blessed with two sons, sports have always played an important role in our summer pastimes. I started the boys with swimming lessons from the time they were toddlers, (not wanting them to be embarrassed and traumatized over lack of swimming skills, as I was) , and we progressed on up through soccer to Little League baseball teams. As they grew older, I sent my children to a local boy scout day camp, then later to the same summer camp I attended, near Tyler in east Texas. My family vacations now take the form of trips to the North Carolina beaches, instead of trips to the Rocky Mountains, but either place successfully provides a break from the inferno-like heat that settles in on us towards summer's end. Health problems prevented me from recreating the joyous summer bike rides; as much as I would have liked to share that experience with my children, numerous kidney problems and the resultant surgeries simply meant I spent many summers either in the hospital or at home recovering from one operation or another, and my kidneys just couldn't take the strain (heat, exercise, dehydration = recipe for disaster to me now) like I used to as a child.
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I have other ways of celebrating summer, as well, however, other rituals I routinely perform. Yesterday , hubster and I were at the grocery store, and hubster purchased the first box of this summer's "pop-ice" ( also known as flav-r-pops, or whatever : they go by various names, but are essentially those plastic sleeves of hideously colored juice that you freeze, then cut the end off the plastic sleeve and squeeze the flattened tube of icy sugar water out onto your tongue, turning it electric blue or red or green.) I also love to visit the local farmer's market for fresh produce, esp corn, tomatoes, berries, okra, greens, and peaches, and have made a habit of doing so, no matter where I have lived. When I lived in the mid-Atlantic area, there was silver queen corn to roast and Chesapeake Bay crabs to catch and cook. My children have had fun smashing them on spread out newspapers with hammers for as long as they can remember. We eat them each year when we go back east, and I can never get enough. There are daily pleasures of working in the garden, cooking out on the grill, staying up all night reading books, early morning walks, trips to various favorite local haunts that I don't have time to visit during the school year. From time to time I dabble with painting as a hobby, have always dedicated a part of my home to a little studio, and enjoy having enough free time to pursue that past-time, too.
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But by far the sweetest summer ritual is the one that I savor the most : sleeping in. Turning the alarm clock off, and knowing full well that I don't have to turn it on again, until late August. That is the sweetest gift of all.